My friends say Life is a bitch and we should screw it. I rather believe we are the Bitches and Life screws us. The factor that Life is unpredictable makes your life hell. When you do not know what would happen tomorrow how one can keep living thinking about future. It’s hope that keeps you moving. A hope that things would be the way you want it to be.

My life has been a hell of ride till now and I am sure it is going to be the same in future too. My best friend Sterin once said: Whatever weirdest and most fucked up situation that can ever happen in this world, It would definitely happen in Peeyush’s life. It is kind of true and he is the right person to make that comment. We have spent more than 16 years of our life together. I guess he knows more than what I know about myself.

My life has been a collection of strange to strangest encounters and my current situation is of no exception. One incident leads to another and then to another. It’s like, you get out of one mess and you jump into another. I been telling my girl (yeah, you read it right.), I feel like I am God’s guinea pig. He loves experimenting with me. It’s like oh let me see what would happen if I put him in this situation, then he watches me going through the pain. He enjoys and somehow when I get out of it, he puts me into another fucked up situation. Can’t blame him, I make the choices though situation is crafted by him.

I am totally opposite to the rational impression of men. Boys are not supposed to cry and my tears rolls out every other second. Boys enjoys scary and action movie, I love comedy and romantic movies. I guess I am born to be in pain but then there is this hope within me that it would get over someday and it is this hope that keeps me moving. I might have gone insane by now after all that I went through. It is not me who has suffered the most but my parents who has been suffering cause of me. It is not that I love hurting them but I am not strong enough to face the situation and keep moving. Someday I might reach to a limit and then break down. However I would fight till the end. Best thing is I am not alone struggling with my life. I have the support of my parents, my bro and MY GIRL.

I know she is going through a lot too and I might be adding pressure and burden to her, but at the same time I also know my parents and she is the one who is giving me energy to go on and not breakdown. I pray and hope that God won’t fuck my life again. Hope she would be there with me and I know I have to fight a huge battle. I am tired for sure but not given up yet. I love her and I know she loves me too. I would fight; I have to, for her, for my parents and above all for myself. Someday GOD would give up and I would win. SOMEDAY.

And while I am posting this, she is sitting beside me with tears in her eyes and love in her heart. I cannot disappoint her, I have to gather all my courage and strength and build a life full of happiness for her and for my parents. I am motivated? Yes I am cause when you get a reason and people for him you want to live, you do things right and you put in your effort. She is the one and I cannot lose her.

And if you think my post is too much serious and emotional, then go and listen to Himesh Reshamiya and as for me, I am going back to watch Varnam Ayyiram and wipe my baby’s tears. Have to bring that smile back on her face. She looks cute with that smile of hers. :-D. JEALOUS? GOOD, Be jealous. She is mine and only mine. *Devil Grin*

It's said, not everyone is lucky enough to spend his/her life with their love. Funny part is people who say support this statement falls in love and then after some time they go on different path. Wonder why they ever met at first place, shared their dreams? I shared my dreams and desires too. I always believed in love and I still do though I went through few bad relations.

My faith in him and in love helps me going with a positive vibe. There had been many people who falls in love, gets into a relation and then they end up moving apart. Why people do not have love in their life? Is it all about Destiny? I want to write a lot but not getting enough words to do so. I am not sure whether you guys would be disappointed with my post or not but all I know is though you put in 100% or more than that in a relation yet you end up losing that relation.

It's all about what is written in your destiny.

People say loneliness destroys you, takes you to the world of depression. People say you would lose your mind when you are lonely. I say enjoy the loneliness, spend time with yourself, grow in love with solitude.

Solitude teaches you a lot. It makes you realize the importance of love, relationship, people around you, people who were there in your life, people who ditched you, people who supported you in your hard times; above all it makes you realize the importance of GOD.

It is only when you are lonely, when you are in a state of solitude you realize how close you are to GOD. I had some of my best communication with him when I was all alone.

Loneliness is not a phase when you sulk and feel sorry for yourself; it is a phase when God wants to talk with you. Music is the best medium and tears are the best tools. Do not hesitate to cry your heart out. No your machoism would not be questioned.

Solitude is a phase when you spend time with yourself; spend time with your soul. Tears purify your soul and bring you more close to GOD. Have faith in him, have faith in yourself.

With open arms I stand on the edge of the cliff and look straight up on sky. My eyes are closed and I can feel the cool breeze passing through me, purifying my soul. I can smell the aroma of my soul. I can feel the happiness on my face.

I lie there on green grass with my arms wide open, waiting for my angel to hug me. As I open my eyes slowly I am welcomed with white rays of light and there she was floating on clouds. Pure and innocent. Her charm is so magnetic, pulling me closer to her, into her.

I feel mesmerized and there she is looking at me. Our eyes meet and we look into each other. The smile on her face and twinkle in her eyes were asking me to walk into her arms. I keep looking into her eyes and walk towards her, step by step. As I move closer to her with every step the light gets stronger and more divine. Soon when I reach close to her, just inches away from her face I realize nothing beneath me.

I am floating on the cloud with her, holding her both hands in my hand gently. The faith in her grows stronger, the love for her grows. My mind feels the peace with in and soul feeling the calm. I am in love with myself and she is holding me, making me realize the power of undying love. Love which is peaceful in nature spreads happiness everywhere I smile. She taught me everything with her smile and her gestures. No words said nor heard. Love was whispered from one soul to another.

The power of love and secret of happiness lies in loving yourself and loving others without expecting anything. Pure and humble. I learned it all but there was something that was missing.
I got a hug from my angel. I walk closer to her with my open arms to feel her in my arms.

I look straight onto that lovely, charming, peaceful face and smile on her face grows bigger. I move ahead and as I was about to hold her in my arms the alarm rings and I wake up.

It was a dream but a beautiful one. I long for that hug. I still crave for it. Someday I might end up holding in my arms forever.

I have no clue why I stopped blogging? I left all those things; which once I used to enjoy.

I used to daydream a lot and I used to enjoy my evening by playing cricket or some other sports. I used to spend my noon under tree playing marbles. I used to be carefree; I used to enjoy each moment.

I have so many burdens on my shoulder, so much responsibilities and dreams (not just mine but of my parents and grand parents too) to fulfill that I have lost the sense of freedom. I have to be rich and mature, get a good paying job and earn well so that I can enjoy my life. But wait wasn't I enjoying before too?

I am free yet not free. I am living yet not living. I am earning yet I am poor. What has happened to me? I have grown up and now I have to be mature.

Right. I should move on and leave those lovely days behind. I should work harder and harder in order to survive and earn more to make sure I live happily. But when? When I would be 55 yr. old uncle or granddad may be?

In this fast track life we have lost the essence of life. We are living but as good as a dead man. We aren't doing any justice to our LIFE and that is when I hear a sound coming from inner self. Take a deep breath child, relax. Cherish the nature and be part of someone's happiness. Earning money is important, working hard is important but do not forget the real essence of life.

Cherish each moment with a smile and listen to you heart. Do not just keep running. It is important to take a break and do nothing. Being carefree once in a while is not bad at all. You deserve the happiness and it comes most when you listen to HIM and follow his path to PEACE.

So Let's get started, yet again. Let's LIVE Life Than JUST Live Life.

If you are thinking this post is gonna be a philosophy about how Change plays a role in our life and how it make difference in our life? You are wrong. This post is all about my new HAIRSTYLE.

I had a long hair right from the beginning when I started paying attention to my looks. Although I did had my hair trimmed to shorter lengths but I never thought of getting cropped nearly to baldness.


I thought lets give it a try and went ahead with a stone on my heart. Guess what I liked it, don;t know about others.


Soon I realized the benefits of short hair.

1. Less shampoo required to clean your hair.

2. Less oil required to apply on hair.

3. Less water required to clean hair.

4. Less time in fact no time required to set your hair.

5. Natural air conditioner and you never feel hot as you used to feel when you had long hair.

6. You feel light headed and helps you to concentrate more on your work since you don't have those long hair to ruin your concentration.

In short I realized change is for GOOD and my new hairstyle is good, no matter you like it or not.

You got it; this post is all about happYness. Well before I start with my views n thoughts let me post a dialogue from one of the must watch movie of Will Smith, "In the Pursuit of Happyness".

"It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson, the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking: How did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue. And maybe we can actually never have it, no matter what. How did he know that?"

Although the movie is a fantastic movie but what amused me the most was this dialogue. It sounds so right yet incomplete. It is right that we can only pursue happiness, but how to follow it? When we don't know where the happiness lies how can we follow it? Well, the answer lies with in us. Happiness lies with in you. It's you. No matter what the situation is, no matter what you are going through yet you can be happy.

I fell one can always be happy if he/she wants to be happy. I don't need any reason to be happy. I do agree I am a self-obsessed guy and I find no harm in it. Whenever I am in a bad mood I just close my eyes and imagine myself smiling, laughing and enjoying myself. It refreshes me so much, it gives me immense energy and pleasure.

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where a stranger's smile brings a smile on to your face? Yes a genuine smile can make you happy, little moments and things can make you happy, for that matter even a stranger can make you happy.

As the VEDAS says, Answers to all the questions in this universe lies with in you. So go ahead and find the answer to your happiness and pursue it.

Oh! Do remember to say my hello when you meet your happiness.