Ten Things I Want To Do

1. Marry The Girl I Love. Whoever she be.

2. Open a Cafe. This is one of those dream which keeps me going. Loss or Profit, it does not matter. I would start my own Cafe someday.

3. Build my Dream Home. I have a dream home in my mind and it would be one of the most beautiful creation. Peace and calmness rejuvenating you whenever you visit our home.

4. Have two cute little kids. My world. Yes I want to be dad and this desire was in me even before I started with my high school. Somewhere inside I always wanted to settle down than focusing on my career.

5. Retire by the age of 45. Yes, you read that right. I want to retire by the age of 45 or even before that. I do not want to spend my entire life working. I want to enjoy my days with my life when I am young.

6. Start my own photo studio/photo gallery. No logic behind it, I just want to start it.

7. Above all I want to write a novel. At least one novel. It's inside me, a desire which I want to fulfill at any cost.

8. To explore my country on a bike, a bicycle. Yes, I love to travel and that is one thing which I want to do. Have you seen Into The Wild? If not, do watch it. You would get to know what I meant.

9. May be enter into politics. Something which amused me ever since I have tried to understand what exactly happens in the parliament and how it affects us.

10. Direct a movie. Shrey would be the lead character. Not because he is my friend but because he is a good actor. One movie would do.

So these are some of the things which I want to do. Some desires of mine.

Dedicated To People Who Matter to Me

This one post, dedicated to all those people (except my immediate family) who matters to me. Who made their existence felt in my life? And it would be pretty long.

To start with (in no chronological order) -

Gaurav Sharma - This flamboyant character is hard to find in these days. He is one of those personalities who would either win your heart or make you feel jealous at the very first instant. Being with him for more than 3 years has taught me a lot. He had been there through the toughest phase of my life, when I was all alone and people kept distance with me. He was there giving me full support. He is full of confidence, which was proved when he walked on the college ramp for Mr. Personality half naked and asked faculty members to come in micro mini if he becomes director of the college. To everybody's disappointment he is not the director of the college and to his disappointment he was disqualified. But he had the guts to do that. That is Gaurav Sharma. He has his own charm and carries it quite confidently. Wish you all the best and take care of my chocolate partner dude.

Shrey Sharma - Another interesting character of my life. He is full of energy and childish by nature. However he never likes to be called as a Kido, Cute or Sweet. He likes to be called as Handsome, Sexy and Mature. He forgives everyone and would go out of his way to help others whether that be the kid living in a slump outside his house or someone who is totally stranger to him and may be won’t meet him in his life ever. He does not think twice before reacting and he does not have any inhibitions with in him. He would act like a monkey in a sophisticated 5 star restaurant without fearing to be thrown out or ridiculed by others. That is Shrey Sharma. Full of enthu and carries a dream of being a well known actor some day. He does not leave his hope even in toughest situation. I have very precious memories with him which I would cherish so long I live. He is my best friend.

Sterin Pereira - My childhood best friend. He is been there in thick and thin of my life. Knows me more than I know myself. Spending evenings doing nothing still feeling you did a lot together, had best of the time that can happen only with
Sterin. He is full of sense of humour and that too irritating ones. He would make any situation humorous though you would run after his life later on. He is crazy. He cannot kick a goal though he is the only person near the goal and the goal keeper is standing in the half court but he can do awesome rainbow flick. He would force us to shoot video and click pic of his while he is driving bike without holding it. He would do anything to enjoy that adrenaline.

Ekta Jain – One of those personalities who love me for what I am but then knows that I can never be her life partner. Negativity? Well it is a part of her life now and I understand why she feels so. After going through so much in her life I won’t blame her for carrying negativity in her mind. She thinks only good for others no matter how much others have hurt her. It does not matter to her. She would help the person even though she did not got any help when she needed it. She is innocent and simple person. She is one of those homely girls who love to giggle and live in her own world of imagination. She is getting engaged soon and I wish her all the best for her future. Let her life be full of happiness. Correction : She is not getting engaged, she played a prank. :| Stupid me.

Bharat Kalra – Moment I think of him, a smile comes on my face. He is a joker, he is a drama, he is angry young man but he is a good human being. He speaks his heart out and has his own way of dealing with people, whether that is our burger wale bhaiya or director of our college. He can deal with anyone with ease. He is known for his pagalpanti. He along with Shrey makes the best pair. You won’t feel bored when you are with them. They know how to enjoy the moment though they have no money in their pocket. I learned how to live and enjoy life with them.

Pooja Soni – My online friend with whom I shared almost everything about me and my life. With whom I used to fight while chatting. She is one of those precious people in my life who made my life worthy but then every good thing has to come to an end. She had been there all the time. She was there to listen to me, to fight with me, to play pranks on others, to tease others. Pooja, a person who lives for her friends and would do anything for her friends. She is reckless and meets with accident all the time. She is happy for she found her love and I wish her all the best.

Asifa Afroz - Very few people knows about her role in my life. She is really gorgeous. We met in a very strange scenario and before I realize we were really close to each other. She knows each and everything about me and I cherish the closeness I have with her. Mutual respect and love for each other has made this relation really pure and innocent. I admire her for what she is and respect her for her views towards life. The amount of care and pamper I got from her was something which I never expected from anyone. I still remember the first day I saw her during the training session and I asked my friend Darius about her. I started searching for her name in my office mail list. Finally, I found her name, mailed her and to my surprise I got a reply too. Girl whom I hardly knows, hardly ever talked to, I was asking her to come out and meet me. It was drizzling in the early morning and I was waiting for my cab and for her too. Well to be honest I was not expecting her to come out to meet me but then she did. She did came out and met me. There we were, standing outside of our office, chit chatting, getting wet in the drizzle. From then till now, We have come a long way. She is important to me and I am glad I had some really good time with her which would be cherished forever my life. She is a very good friend of mine.

Vartika Negi - I call her Kameeni and she calls me Kameena, makes sense specially when you are working in the same organization. Kidding. She is one of those characters who enjoys her work and gives the best. This was evident from her quality reports. I still remember, I was taking calls for quite some time and when I noticed Avaya(the phone which tells how long you have been on calls) I realized I have been on call for 3 and half hour continously, taking calls one after the other. I was excited and called Vartika. She smiled and asked me to notice her time. She was on call for 3 hours and 45 minutes. That is her dedication towards her work. She been a great friend to me.

Dedicated to Freedom Of Speech

I am a citizen of India and I have the freedom of speech, i.e. is my birth right. Why all of a sudden I am saying all this? Well recently I have been a part of group blogging in my college. It was something which we have to do for our internal marks, A COMPULSION. This is being conducted in all the four classes.

Recently I had the privilege to check other section's blog. One of the students, wrote about how you can give good time to your girl friend by smooching her the right way. Well it was quite offensive, at least that is what they believe. He got left, right and center from his class teacher. He must have felt bad but he never gave up. Then comes his next post talking about not to misunderstand a girl's laugh. I agree to him completely. Even GOD can't judge a woman.

Well it is not this which has provoked me to write this blog, what provoked me is the comments posted my some of the classmates who calls themselves sane and talks the language of decency.

The blog was just an experience of him and what followed was some SMART ASSES posting the comments trying to demotivate him. I usually do not take names but I would make an exception today.

SUDHANSHU PANDEY - one of those idiotic personalities who does not understand even the simplest thing taught by the faculty, who is filled with queries posted comments asking the author to remove his narrow mindedness and then posting sarcastic comments on the apology blog.

Another one come from ABHISHEK GUPTA who requested the author to do a mental checkup and join BAJRANG DAL, RSS, SHIV SENA and other such conservative parties. WOHHHAA who is he? GOD? Guiding light for all the citizens of India? Isn't India suffering coz of such people and such parties? For once I wish democracy was not prevailing in our country and these parties were demolished.

Punishing someone for sharing personal experiences? I guess they have not understood the meaning of blogging?

Final words to the Author: I appreciate and empathize with your blog posts. I understand you were expressing your views and response you got is not something you expected. Though you got a bitter experience but I hope you realize that the people you are dealing with are hypocrites and conservative. Do not feel bad cause of their posts who watches porn in secrecy, discuss about girls all the time and stare at them whenever they pass by as if they are some prey. Bloody Hypocrites.

Suggestion, start your own blog and do not pour your experiences in a blog where no one appreciates or understands your thoughts. Let your blog be your world where you make your own rules.

I appreciate you for the strength you are showing. Do not lose hope for each one has their own world and their own people to understand.

P.S. If someone is hurt I am least bothered for this is my blog and my post.

The Show Must Go On

All I ever desired for was to spend my life with the girl whom I love. Have a family with her and a small home filled with simplicity and happiness. Not much I desire for. I fought, I kept moving. My heart was broken and I don’t have any count for how many times it was shattered. People hate me; people don’t care about me, neither do I.

I thought it’s easy to live life when you don’t have to bother about anyone and don’t care about anyone. But then at one point of the life you start feeling left out, you start feeling as if it would had been better if you never took birth in this world, at least not as a human. I wonder when my role in this drama would get over. When would I have an exit, when I bow my head to the audience and make an exit only this time it would be forever.

Retired theatre artist, resting in peace, satisfied or unsatisfied with his role? Not sure but is he happy? Oh yes he is. With a cigar in his mouth, hands both folded, face with no emotions on it, eyes closed and lying there in his coffin where he would sleep for the rest of his life. Dreams fulfilled, unfulfilled, doesn’t matter, cause this is the ultimate truth of the life.

So what if he has gone? So what if one artist has retired from the stage of LIFE? Tomorrow it would be a new show, a new face, a new story, for as they say “A SHOW MUST GO ON.”

As Looney Toons says, That’s all folks. :)

P.S. People think I am being pessimist. May be, but that is the way I am.

On Request and little bit show off

People have been curious and surprised seeing my Gajhini hairstyle. Many felt it was funny and weird. I agree to them. I am on weird crazy person. Do I feel good? Oh yes I do and that is why this new post of mine where I try to surprise you even more. My evolution with time:

ABOUT MY GAJHINI LOOK:

This is how I got my Gajhini Hairstyle. Courtesy : Sterin Periera(my best friend and hair cut partner)





And This was the outcome.



MY GAJHINI CUT :-P

Click on the pics to ENLARGE it.

P.S. Do post your comments :-P

In Love With Solitude

People say loneliness destroys you, takes you to the world of depression. People say you would lose your mind when you are lonely. I say enjoy the loneliness, spend time with yourself, grow in love with solitude.

Solitude teaches you a lot. It makes you realize the importance of love, relationship, people around you, people who were there in your life, people who ditched you, people who supported you in your hard times; above all it makes you realize the importance of GOD.

It is only when you are lonely, when you are in a state of solitude you realize how close you are to GOD. I had some of my best communication with him when I was all alone.

Loneliness is not a phase when you sulk and feel sorry for yourself; it is a phase when God wants to talk with you. Music is the best medium and tears are the best tools. Do not hesitate to cry your heart out. No your machoism would not be questioned.

Solitude is a phase when you spend time with yourself; spend time with your soul. Tears purify your soul and bring you more close to GOD. Have faith in him, have faith in yourself.

With Arms Wide Open

With open arms I stand on the edge of the cliff and look straight up on sky. My eyes are closed and I can feel the cool breeze passing through me, purifying my soul. I can smell the aroma of my soul. I can feel the happiness on my face.

I lie there on green grass with my arms wide open, waiting for my angel to hug me. As I open my eyes slowly I am welcomed with white rays of light and there she was floating on clouds. Pure and innocent. Her charm is so magnetic, pulling me closer to her, into her.

I feel mesmerized and there she is looking at me. Our eyes meet and we look into each other. The smile on her face and twinkle in her eyes were asking me to walk into her arms. I keep looking into her eyes and walk towards her, step by step. As I move closer to her with every step the light gets stronger and more divine. Soon when I reach close to her, just inches away from her face I realize nothing beneath me.

I am floating on the cloud with her, holding her both hands in my hand gently. The faith in her grows stronger, the love for her grows. My mind feels the peace with in and soul feeling the calm. I am in love with myself and she is holding me, making me realize the power of undying love. Love which is peaceful in nature spreads happiness everywhere I smile. She taught me everything with her smile and her gestures. No words said nor heard. Love was whispered from one soul to another.

The power of love and secret of happiness lies in loving yourself and loving others without expecting anything. Pure and humble. I learned it all but there was something that was missing.
I got a hug from my angel. I walk closer to her with my open arms to feel her in my arms.

I look straight onto that lovely, charming, peaceful face and smile on her face grows bigger. I move ahead and as I was about to hold her in my arms the alarm rings and I wake up.

It was a dream but a beautiful one. I long for that hug. I still crave for it. Someday I might end up holding in my arms forever.